sweet memories....where are they?

Childhood and years at college are often associated with memories, sweet and funny. Images of friends and yesterdays bringing smiles and tears. how often do we hear people talking about that uncle, this neighbour, that naughty cousin, how they played in slush, in the rain, in the fields, having such a good time in college, always bringing a smile and occasionally laughter at the very thought.

But when people ask me about my childhood, all i give them is a blank stare. What really happened in my childhood? Or for that matter my college days? Why is it that i don't remember being a child? what went on through all those years of schooling and college education? All the events, incidents that i do remember is simply with the help of other people. what is the most memorable thing to have happend to you? no clue. did you have a great time in college? Nothing that i remember.

friends will part but the memories of the times spent with them will always remain. I do remember my friends but the time spent with them? I dont know. I was always a dreamer, always lost in my own sweet little paradise.

I didnt have a childhood, I didn't have an adolescence, I'll never know if i was a teenager or attended college, save for my university marks sheets.

What is it that blocks my memories?

Born in the wrong era....episode 2

The mad hatter is back....this time with an argument. This is a logical argument to prove that it is not possible to create a function which generates random numbers...ever!!!

So, let us start off by assuming that we do have a function which generates random numbers. Now, given our obsession with computers, let us implement the damn thing using whatever programming language we want.

let us say we first generate some number using a generate button which activates the function.

now consider two cases: the number generated after the button is hit at time t, and the number generated after the button is hit at time t+t'

will the two numbers be the same?

If the answer is no, then it would seem that the function is dependent on time, which makes it non random.

if the answer is yes, then the function is predictable and hence it is non random.

so there you go...my argument as to why a random function cannot be generated.

but is there something called as dependant and independent random functions? if yes, then my argument holds good for a dependent random function

dreams

I've been trying to learn the guitar for around three months now ( i've calculated that by the number of times i've paid up for the classes...and i'm not very regular at that). I've always wanted to play the flamenco style. Check out the video.

This guy says its not flamingo or flamenco...am not too sure what the difference is..but what i do envy is the ease with which his fingers cruise along the fretboard. In other videos of his, he plays certain pieces so fast, it becomes difficult to even hum those pieces. How long will it take before i can play like that?

I'm trying people...just be patient and save your money for my album :-)

bored

here's what i do :
rise early morn
n go to the loo
dress up n wait for the horn

board the damn bus
wade through the shitty traffic
all this to be done without a fuss
inspite of the journey being so horrific

At my desk, my comp i unlock
eagerly to see if i've got some work
but afsos, at my door it doesn't at all knock
so while away my time like a jerk

watching anime
playing games
talking crap
looking at dames

back onto the bus i go
through the traffic stupid
my wierd little backpack in tow
my sense of optimism insipid

of this monotony
i am bored
i got into it for the money
but now im bored